Ch-ch-changes...

Evolutionary stuff sometimes occurs while we're distracted by meaningless events and people. There was a time when I craved the company of others and the acceptance of the populace. That was a different time... and a different person.

      "So I turned myself to face me, but I never caught a glimpse." For those that don't know, David Bowie is one of my favorite artists. His words always seem to be apropos for whatever is going on in my life, and the last two years have been "Bowie-esque," as I've reintroduced me to myself, and made some necessary and overdue ch-ch-changes. 

       One of my monikers, Good Time Charlie, has been discarded and buried, along with all that came with it. I don't go to popular clubs, make appearances at uninspiring events, or waste time doing things I have no interest in. Those days are gone. I'll decline a lot of invitations, sometimes simply because of the guest list. Why be bothered with people whom I wouldn't piss on if they were on fire? Sorry to sound harsh, but time is too precious a commodity to waste... and I can't order more of it. "Time may change me, but I can't trace time."

       I think of all the minutes and hours that I gave away, and I wish I could have those moments back. Think of the occasions where a fake conversation is being held with gossamer people, and false laughter is the soundtrack. Nah, I'm good. A shared past doesn't quite warrant a seat in my future. Or mine in someone else's. Life happens, time doesn't pause, and friends become strangers or afterthoughts. That's reality.

       I found myself recently in a venue overflowing with love, and I'll show up there again. Other places, events, and people have been outgrown, and I don't have any regrets about that. Years are the best teachers and I'm not even the same cat I was last year. The Ch-ch-changes are evident in all that I do, and it's okay if I fall into the category of "people you used to know." Smile at the past and wave it goodbye, because it's over. The rearview mirror has been smashed, and looking ahead is the only option. Peace and best wishes...

msh